Alekan Girl II

Let me tell you about the story of Jotun.

Jotun was a young man, he had many things, a good family, a good life, despite all the differences, a good perspective of life.

He knew, something was wrong with him, from the day he realized it, he knew. Sometimes, we lose everything, we lose our faith, everything goes black, world and people tore you apart and rip you to shreds. Sometimes, you just don't understand, we form our own reality, we try to understand it with our limited perspective.

It was one of those years; Jotun constantly asked himself; "What is my purpose? What are my goals? What can i do? Where is my place? Who do i belong with?"

For those questions, no answer can satisfy the host. Alas, there are no answers maybe. Maybe all these blackness, all these conflicted interests, this avalanche, we call life. There are no definitive answers, no big chances, no grander unity.

Years passed, young boy, haunted himself with these questions, he made his own life a miserable hell, he created his personal fears, his personal griefs, he thought;

"This world is giving me more and more pain at the every step that i take, i'm afraid that i will lose everything that i gained at this rate, i'm afraid, i was always afraid, i was constantly scared. Fear was my constant, i revolved around it, i drank the dark waters of grief, i bathed in the sweet sorrow of envy. So i will create my own fears, i will create my own sorrows, i will shield myself, i will go deeper and deeper. I will hid the real me, so deep, no one will able to touch and break it, no one can harm me, no one will betray me."

So, Jotun hid the crystals, so deep and so far away beyond the White Lands, deep within the mountains, he hid the crystals and prayed that no one will find them.

So many winters passed, Jotun was alright, he felt relief, no one was able to harm him, no one tried to reach out to the crystals, Jotun was ok.

At the third winter, he met with an Alekan girl. Hair, like earth, eyes, like ice crystals on the evening sun. Girl came from the sea, she rode a small white boat. They became good friends, and at some point, lovers even...

But, Jotun remembered about the crystals, he took all his grief, all his pain, all his lifelesness into those crystals and sealed it away, the more he tried to hide it, the more he remembered, this made Alekan girl distant, angry, cause she wanted Jotun to forget about the past transgressions, she wanted Jotun to get rid of the crystals, she said;

"Jotun, you don't need to bottle up your sum of all fears, let it go, don't let futile things trouble you no more, it hurts me, it hurts you, just try to trust the moment, just try to let go, don't let them engulf you anymore, you don't need it, i cannot see through the crystals, i want to see real you, but crystals are just too tough."

Jotun was confused, Alekan girl was of course talking about the truth, but young man was afraid as always, Jotun was at the crossroads.

He was afraid again, but this time, fear came with another equal, perhaps something more than equal...