20.12.2010
Kristal Gerçeklikler
19.12.2010
Diary of a Self-Loather
16.12.2010
Geceler ve Seçimler
11.12.2010
Modern Günahlar
21.11.2010
I'm Fromm New Jersey
I don't expect too much
If the world ended today
I would adjust
I'm from New Jersey
No I don't talk that way
I watched too much TV
When I was young
I'm from New Jersey
My mom's Italian
I've read those mafia books
We don't belong
There are girls from New Jersey
Who have that great big hair
They're found in shopping malls
I will take you there
I'm from New Jersey
It's not like Texas
There is no mystery
I can't pretend
I'm from New Jersey
It's like Ohio
But even more so
Imagine that
I know which exit
And where I'm bound
The tolls on the parkway
They will slow you down
New Jersey people
They will suprise you
Cause they're not expected
To do too much
They will try harder
They may go further
Cause they never think
That they are good enough
I'm from New Jersey
I don't expect too much
If the world ended today
I would adjust
I would adjust
I would adjust
13.11.2010
Ruh Halleri VI
9.11.2010
Kabullenilen İhtiraslar ve Anoreksiya
7.11.2010
Ölüm ve Çatı Katları
6.11.2010
Kelimelerimin İzdüşümü
3.11.2010
Ruh Halleri V
13.10.2010
Eko ve Görece
Bilemedim
24.09.2010
World of Darkness Online Fragman!
22.09.2010
Ruh Halleri VI
19.09.2010
Wizards of Istanbul XII – Bir Yıl Sonrası Raporu
Aslında dün “bana yazacak çok şey çıktı, bütün bunların hepsini nasıl toparlayacağım.” diye düşünüyordum. Normalde biliyorsunuz her buluşmadan sonra, hem gelemeyenlere özet geçmek amacıyla, hem de diğer masalarda oynamış arkadaşlara başka masalarda ne gibi maceralar yaşandığını göstermek için yazıyorduk bu raporları, bir de biraz kişisel olarak içimizdekileri sizler ile paylaşmak için sanırım. Şaka bir yana, bu bir buluşma sonrası raporu değil. 12 Ay boyunca elimizden gelenin en iyisini yapmaya çalıştık, imkansızlıklar tabii ki herkesin önünde engel, fakat buna rağmen bu süreci bizimle yaşamış olan bütün büyücülere teşekkür etmek isterim. Rol Yapma Oyunları ile ilgili her ay devam eden bir etkinlik olması bizim açımızdan çok önemli, sürekli farklı insanlar ile tanışıyoruz, kimileri başlamak konusunda çok tereddütlü, kimileri yıllar önce bir kere oynamış ve tekrar oynamaya fırsat bulamamış, bunun gibi bir sürü insanı elimizden geldiğince buyur etmeye çalıştık geçtiğimiz sezon, bir sürü genç arkadaş kendisine bu denli yaratıcı bir hobi edindi ve bunu geliştirmeye baktı, bir süre sonra kendi hikayelerini yazıp başka insanlarla masanın üzerinde paylaştılar, hikayeler başkaları dahil oldukça büyüdü, gelişti ve herkesin içinde bir yer edindi.
Her ay Wizards of Istanbul’da yüzlerce kişinin katılımı ile yaratılan bu hikayeler aslında o kadar önem taşıyor ki ister inanın ister inanmayın, hepimizin anlatacak bir hikayesi var, kimileri henüz bunu yazmadı, kimileri ise gerekli ilhamı bulmadı, fakat inanın hepimizin anlatacak daha çok hikayesi var.
WoI’nin hikayesi de bir hayalin el birliği ile kartopu gibi büyümesine benziyor, hikayemize dahil olduğunuz için, hikayelerinizi bizlerle paylaştığınız için bir kez daha teşekkür ederiz, sizlerin anlatacak şeyi oldukça Wizards of Istanbul senelerce devam edecek umarım. 12 Ay sizlerle çok hızlı ve çok eğlenceli geçti.
Peki bundan sonrasında ne olacak? Hikayelerimiz devam edecek, sürekli yenileri eklenecek. Bu ayın hikayelerine gelecek olursak:
Dragon Age masası ile bu ay aramızda olan Ali Emre Eyol oyuncularını Thedas dünyasının Blight’a karşı ilk savunması olan Ölüler Lejyonu’na sokarak karanlık ve fantastik bir hikaye yaşattı.
Alp Bilgin’in kahkaha ve eğlence dolu Yancılar Üniversitesi kötü adam yetiştirmeye devam etti!
Birtan Okçu’nun oyuncuları aldığım duyumlara göre zombilere karşı amansız bir mücadele içine girmiş, kaçı hayatta kaldı hala haberimiz yok.
Birtan Özsoy ise Stephen King’in Mist isimli eserinden uyarlama oyununda oyuncularına ürkütücü bir yılbaşı partisi yaşattı.
Can Sungur’un meşhur Pathfinder oyunlarında hayatta kalanlar nadirdir, genelde tinerci Pathfinder Goblinleri tarafından arkanızdan bıçaklanırsınız, bu sefer de pek farklı olmadı, ama bir kişi hayatta kalmayı başardı!
Candaş Tekman “En Uzun Süren Oyunlara Sahip DM” ünvanını koruyor, kendi oluşturduğu Altın Kıta’da hikayeleri o kadar uzun sürdü ki partiye bile katılamadılar: )
Çağlar Kalaycıoğlu bir Sphagetti Western hikayesi anlattı, kan, para ve özgürlük!
Didem Karabıyık popüler TV dizisi Heroes’un Türkiye’de geçen bir versiyonunu oynattı, uçan kahramanlar yokmuş duyduğuma göre, hatta süper kahraman olan bile yokmuş ama oyuncular feci eğlenmişler.
İlker Karaş “Sentetik Nesil” serisine devam ediyor, Cyber Punk konsepti kendisinden sorulur!
Mehmet Ortaç’ı askere gitmeden önceki sondan ikinci World of Darkness jübilesini yaptı, gelecek ay itinayla sorunuz!
Mert Günhan (Yani ben) oyuncularına Eski İstanbul’dan bir gizem hikayesi anlattı,ağzı bozuk taksicileri,meşe sopalı minibüsçüleri ve rüşvetçi polisleri ile İstanbul, Karanlıklar Dünyasından daha ürkütücü!
Mert Serim bu ay bir hikaye anlatıcısı olarak kariyerine başladı, LOST’tan farksız senaryosu ile oyuncularının aklını aldığını düşünüyorum.
Mustafa Yılmaz müstakbel bir bilim adamı olarak bilgisini konuşturmaya devam ediyor, bu adam kafaları her oyununda allak bullak ediyor.
Ozan Erdi’nin oyununda karakterler ise ne istediğini bilmedikleri bir kraldan kaçtıkça kaçtılar!
Ozan Horuk’ta bu WoI’de hikaye anlatıcılığına başlayanlardan, Karanlıklar Dünyasına 5 adet ölümlü koyarsanız ne olur sorusuna çok güzel bir cevap veriyor kendisi.
Özgün Güneş ise One Piece sevgisini her organizasyonda göstermekten çekinmiyor, her oyununda Amiral Kizaru ile oyuncularını dövüştürüyor!
Serkan Özay ve X-Men’leri her ay dünyayı kurtarmaya devam ediyor! Bu adama bir mutant akademisi lazım artık!
Yunus Caner Güner’in oyuncuları Kameriye’de kendilerinden geçmiş ve İstanbul’un yıkıntıları arasında yaşam savaşı veren insanları aramış duyduğum kadarıyla : )
Evet, benden bu kadar, gelecek ay görüşmek üzere arkadaşlar, 13.WoI sizleri bekler!
Mert Günhan
Wizards of Istanbul Organizatörü
16.09.2010
Space Bound
It's torturous, you must, be a sorceress cause you just
did the impossible, gained my trust, don't play games it'll be dangerous
if you fuck me over, cause if I get burnt I'ma show ya
what it's like to hurt, cause I been treated like dirt, befo' ya
And love is evol, spell it backwards I'll show you
Nobody knows me I'm cold, walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own, it's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow, I show no emotion what-so-ever so
Don't ask me why I have no, love for these muh'fuckin hoes
Blood-suckin succubuses, what the fuck is up with this?
I've tried in this department but, I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be like tryin to start over
I got a hole in my heart but some kind of emotional roller coaster's
somethin I won't go on so you toy with my emotions, hoe it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold ya, wasn't jokin when I told you
You take my breath away, you're a supernova
And I'm a...
I'm a space bound rocketship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aimin right at you, right at you
two hundred fifty thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aimin right at you, right at you, right at you
I'll do whatever it takes, when I'm with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain't, with you I have zero strength
There's no limit on how far I would go, no boundaries no lengths
Why do we say that until we get that person that we think's
gonna be that one and then once we get 'em it's never the same
You want 'em when they don't want you, soon as they do feelings change
It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate
I wasn't lookin when I stumbled onto you, must've been fate
But so much is at stake, what the fuck does it take? Let's cut to the chase
'fore the door shuts in your face, promise me if I cave in and break
and leave myself open that I won't be makin a mistake
Cause I'm a
I'm a space bound rocketship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aimin right at you, right at you
Two hundred fifty thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aimin right at you, right at you, right at you
So after a year and six months, it's no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts, never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you, let down my guard swear to God
I'll blow my brains in your lap, lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I'm pleadin, I'm tryin to stop you from leavin
You won't even listen so fuck it, I'm tryin to stop you from breathin
I put both hands on your throat, I sit on top of you squeezin
'til I snap your neck like a popsicle stick, ain't no possible reason
I can think of to let you walk up out this house and let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks, then I let you go and just give
And 'fore I put that gun to my temple I told you this {*blam*}
And I would've did anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it's over now, it's too late to save our, love
Just promise me you'll think of me
Every time you look up in the sky and see a star cause I'm a
I'm a space bound rocketship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aimin right at you, right at you
Two hundred fifty thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm so lost without you, without you, without you..
29.08.2010
Baphomet and Levi
In the 19th century, the name of Baphomet became associated with the occult. In 1854, Eliphas Levi published Dogme et Rituel de la Haute Magie ("Dogmas and Rituals of High Magic"), in which he included an image he had drawn himself which he described as Baphomet and "The Sabbatic Goat", showing a winged humanoid goat with a pair of breasts and a torch on its head between its horns,This image has become the best-known representation of Baphomet.
Levi's depiction is similar to that of the Devil in early tarot cards, but it may also have been partly inspired by grotesque carvings on the Templar churches of Lanleff in Brittany and St. Merri in Paris, which depict squatting bearded men with bat wings, female breasts, horns and the shaggy hindquarters of a beast.
"The goat on the frontispiece carries the sign of the pentagram on the forehead, with one point at the top, a symbol of light, his two hands forming the sign of hermetism, the one pointing up to the white moon of Chesed, the other pointing down to the black one of Geburah. This sign expresses the perfect harmony of mercy with justice. His one arm is female, the other male like the ones of the androgyn of Khunrath, the attributes of which we had to unite with those of our goat because he is one and the same symbol. The flame of intelligence shining between his horns is the magic light of the universal balance, the image of the soul elevated above matter, as the flame, whilst being tied to matter, shines above it. The beast's head expresses the horror of the sinner, whose materially acting, solely responsible part has to bear the punishment exclusively; because the soul is insensitive according to its nature and can only suffer when it materializes. The rod standing instead of genitals symbolizes eternal life, the body covered with scales the water, the semi-circle above it the atmosphere, the feathers following above the volatile. Humanity is represented by the two breasts and the androgyn arms of this sphinx of the occult sciences."Lévi considered the Baphomet to be a depiction of the absolute in symbolic form and explicated in detail his symbolism in the drawing that served as the frontispiece:
Levi called his image "The Goat of Mendes", presumably following Herodotus' account that the god of Mendes — the Greek name for Djedet, Egypt — was depicted with a goat's face and legs. Herodotus relates how all male goats were held in great reverence by the Mendesians, and how in his time a woman publicly copulated with a goat. However the deity that was venerated at Egyptian Mendes was actually a ram deityBanebdjed (literally Ba of the lord of djed, and titled "the Lord of Mendes"), who was the soul of Osiris. Levi combined the images of the Tarot of Marseilles Devil card and refigured the ram Banebdjed as a he-goat, further imagined by him as "copulator in Anep and inseminator in the district of Mendes".
Egyptian connections aside, Lévi's depiction, for all its modern fame, does not match the historical descriptions from the Templar trials, although it is akin to some grotesques found on Templar churches, or, more specifically, to Viollet-le-Duc's vivid gargoyles that were added to Notre Dame de Paris about the same time as Lévi's illustration.
Levi's now-familiar image of a "Sabbatic Goat" shows parallels with works by the Spanish artist Francisco Goya, who more than once painted a "Witch's Sabbath"; in the version ca 1821-23, El gran cabrón now at the Prado, a group of seated women offer their dead infant children to a seated goat.
Story
28.08.2010
Talkin 2 Myself
But there was no one who even knew what I was going through
Hatred was flowing through my veins
On the verge of going insane
I almost made a mission to diss my friends
It's like I was jealous of them cause the attention they were gettin'
I felt horrible about myself
They were spittin and I wasn't
Anyone who was buzzin back then coulda got it
Almost went at my brother too
God it feels like I'm goin' psychotic
Thank god that I didn't do it
I would of had my ass handed to me
And I knew it but Ace wasn't here to see me through it
I'm in the booth poppin another pill tryna talk myself into it
Are you stupid? You gon' start dissin people for no reason?
Especially when you can't even write a decent punchline even
You're lying to yourself, you're slowly dying, you're denying
Your health is declinging with your self esteem, you're crying out for help
I don't see nobody else ( I guess I keep talkin to myself)
But all these other rappers suck is all that I know
I've turned into a hater, I've put up a false bravado
But Fool is not a egomaniac that's not his motto
HE's not a desperado he's desperate it's startin to bottle inside em
One foot on the brake one on the throttle
Fallin asleep with artists block in the parking lot of mcdonalds
But instead of feeling sorry for yourself do something about it
Admit you got a problem you brain is clouded you pouted long enough
It isn't them it's you you fuckin baby
Quit worrying about what they do and do fuckin harmony
I'm fucking going crazy
Hit my bottom so hard I bounce twice suffice this time around
It's different them last two years didn't count
2008 I was on depression, 2010 I was flushing em out
I've come up to make it up to you no more fucking around
I've got something to prove to my friends I feel like I let em down
So please accept my apology I finally feel like I'm back to normal
Let me formally reintroduce myself to you for those of you who don't know
The new mes back to the old me and homie I don't show no
Signs of slowin up, pullin up, blowin up, all over no mo
My life is no longer a movie but the shows aint over homos
I'm back with a vengeance homie DCD keep ya head up
Ace keep ya head up, Lynx keep ya head up
Don't let up, keep slayin em
Cause I know what it's like
I struggle with this shit every single day
Orexis
Do you know what the word anorexia means? Maybe it has little meaning to you, but watch out, because the name is derived from its author--Orexis. He's out for keeps. Just as Oplexicon seeks to stop the life-giving flow of the Words of life, Orexis, his companion, seeks to stop the life-giving flow of fuel to your body. Orexis seeks to bottle up your body fuel and the nutrition that you need to keep you going, vibrant, and alive. Orexis seeks to starve you and destroy you and your usefulness to help others.
It could have been different for me. I could have received help and been delivered from this disease of anorexia. I could have lived a while longer on Earth and helped others, instead of causing so much grief and pain. But I made a willful decision to listen to the wrong voices. I listened to the lies of Orexis. I let the dark voices in. I just gave up. I didn't hold on. I didn't ask Jesus to help me. He could have. He would have.
Jesus has healed me now. I'm delivered. It hasn't been easy, though; going before your time never is. It's been a hard and long recovery. It would take too long to tell you of the grief and pain I caused others, and that I've had to endure myself. You wouldn't want to go through the same. That's why I wanted to share my story with you. Won't you please take my advice? Beware of the fashion lies! Don't fall for the tricks of Orexis! Go God's way! Take care of your body, obey His loving laws and enjoy life...
From: Man Looketh on the Outward Appearance Part 2 Maria 385 DO 3125
Im Not Afraid
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit and
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the whole universe!